Dear Kim Hyeon-Ha,

     I’m sorry that I didnt tell you i was on a D3 grind to try and earn side money.
im sorry i didnt tell you i lost some work hours at work so i barely got a paycheck to hang out with you.
im sorry i started texting you less.
im sorrry i didnt balance my dance with my human life and keep the social links in check.

im sorry i always came late to meet you and usually waited an hour or more.
im sorry i didnt explain the meaning of filipino time to you so would understand why i kinda always came late.

In the end you also didnt communicate with me. You said your that yourself communication was key. That night at dawa’s house when it was kazuki’s and kaori’s birthday you confessed to me about your past relationship and you cheating on him. In my head 2 things came up. I had a symbolic road before me which had a fork in it. the right path was to just leave you and break up after you told me that. The left path was the path of foregiveness and acceptance. I chose the left path but when we stopped texting and communicating to each other this thought was in the back of my mind. My emotions were AMPLIFIED. You kept things from me and hearing and learning about it from another person would hurt more but not anymore. You went to places, tried to cover it up and didnt want me to know about that. you cheated on me while we were on the verge of our break up by starting to talk to another guy. On the day of the break you even lied to me saying you wanted to be single and just want to stay friends with me when actually you were having fun with that french nigga and you let him flirt and both of you built feelings for each other. 

After I saw you today holding your new bf in the line and saw that kiss good bye. I finally understood the gaps and missing truths and pieces that you didnt want to tell me. I understand that I am not worth the decency or respect of hearing the truth DIRECTLY from you. You basically met another man that gave you attention while I was at my low point that you didnt really know about and just gave me up. Im wishing you luck on your future relationships but im not happy for you. You contradicted yourself on your major ex-relationship when you fucked that other Brazillian nigga and you kept it a secret from your ex bf but told me. Get the fuck outta here!! 꺼저개새끼!! Its coo I just met the wrong person and you just a bop, ripper, cheating biattch. PEACE

                                                                         -NJ

P.S - some people deserve a second chance but I took the hard way and wrong pathway

piaoxi:

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

DON’T GO AROUND EATING BOYS

hmm i remember being at my high school and then i saw my ex girlfriend. We were kissing and making out on the bed then i remember I jumped dream scenes to my high school. The bell rung and my ex and i were running around the hallways dodging the school security workers. We were going up and down the 1st and 3rd floors dodging them. after that i woke up and went back into the reality world with the time starting at 1230 PM.

To dream that you are consuming alcohol in excess signifies feelings of inadequacy, worries, regrets and fears of being discovered for who you really are. You are using alcohol as a way to escape or as an excuse for something you did. Alternatively, the dream may be reflective of waking issues and problems of alcoholism.

To dream that someone is an alcoholic (and he/she is not one in real life) indicates that this person is in desperate need for an outlet to express himself or herself. He or she may be indirectly asking for help.

What you learn from that previous relationship may need to be applied to the present one so that you do no repeat the same mistakes. Alternatively, you may be reflecting on the positive experiences and good times that you shared with your past love.�Dreams of getting back together with your ex or of your ex wanting to get back together with you may not necessarily be a reflection of reality. This dream may be triggered by some major change in your current relationship and how far you have come from those past relationships.

To see a robot in your dream indicates that you are going about life in a mechanical, methodical and rigid way. You have lost the ability to express your feelings. Alternatively, a robot symbolizes the way you view your working life.

I had another weird dream about my ex girlfriend we were at some bar and she was drinking alot. she was with some dude and finally got really tipsy. after that i followed her to the dance floor and she wanted to get away from me. after that the dream transformed into some weird humanoid prison experiment. There was this door that allowed people to escape. they need to take off their robotic arms to leave the get open becase there were camera detectors. THis door was actually bait for the security to just catch the humanoid people again. the humanoid robots had to swim but they couldnt do it effectively without their robotic hands. what a friday!

So i remember vividly that i was holding my ex girlfriend by the waste lying down in a somewhat of a spooning position but my face was around her back area. I remember not wanting to let go. but there were other friends in the room that wanted me to go somewhere. I almost entered lucid dreaming mode when i realized it was my ex gf but i just kept holding on to her. hmmm i guess my subconscious is telling me im not getting over her as fast i thought.

she ready